A smile Under Your Tears

hello guys.. back on tract...

I have been away for quite sometimes because I was in manila at saint looks visiting my cousin. While In manila I have learn to smile my sweetest smile even if i wanted to cry.

My cousin has a cancer and he doesnt know it yet, the doctor says he got 3 month maximum to live. It was really painful for us to be in the middle of the right of the patient to know and making his last days memorable for him and mostly for us. It's a selfish decision but I guess it's just the right thing to do. A glimpse of hope is better than knowing that there is no more hope.

What is more painful is that he is just too young, he is too kind and most of all one of the closest cousin I have. Sometimes I asked God why he has to do this while there are a lot of bad people being free, but then again who am i to question God. I guess he has a reason that what ever I do to understand I cant and will never.

To those who have sent postcards and a get well soon card to him, I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart, you made him smile and give us hope that we will see his sweetest smile longer than what science have said...